I recently found a great website called Lyved. I highly recommend checking it out. I decided against writing a “personal constitution”, but I did answer 75 questions. On the site it said there is an old proverb that goes “He that cannot ask cannot live”. So now, at the end of 2008, I am asking…
1. Why not me?
There are many things I do not deserve. I try not to dwell on those things and concentrate on being thankful for all the blessings I do have.
2. Am I nice?
I like to think I am. I know it seems cliché but I really try to treat everyone the same way I would want to be treated.
3. Am I doing what I really want to do?
Starting a life in a different country? Yes. Teaching English to kindergarteners? No.
4. What am I grateful for?
I am grateful for so much, but I will try to keep it short. I am grateful for the Lord, my family, my friends, Murat, my faith, and my health.
5. What’s missing in my life?
I have all the people I love and care about in my life, so just a puppy 
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6. Am I honest?
I try to always be honest with others, even though I may hide the truth from myself sometimes.
7. Do I listen to others?
I listen to others more often than not. However, I have been guilty of not paying attention sometimes, and getting so excited about saying something myself that I interrupt the other speaker (oh so bad of me).
8. Do I work hard?
I work hard in and out of work, but sometimes feel taken for granted. I do not need to be recognized for my work, but when I need a break a need a break with out being hassled about it. Working half the day in two separate classes, I feel like my partners sometimes only think I work half as hard as they do.
9. Do I help others?
Yes. I love helping out. I should help out more often but have to find a good balance between helping others and myself.
10. What do I need to change about myself?
I am a top-notch procrastinator. I really need to allocate my time better so I am not racing to finish at the end of the day.
11. Have I hurt others?
Yes, but I am not intentionally cruel. Most times I have hurt people it was because I wasn’t thinking. I am definitely guilty of that.
12. Do I complain?
I complain a lot when I am sick, but not so much the rest of the time (unless it has to do with my school/work 
).
13. What’s next for me?
In store for me next is more learning (about everything), more praying (about my future), more travel, and more following my heart.
14. Do I have fun?
95% of the time I am having a blast!
15. Have I seized opportunities?
Yes, but I should seize them more often.
16. Do I care about others?
Absolutely!
17. Do I spend enough time with my family?
Since I live thousands of miles away, no. If I still lived in the US it would be a different story.
18. Am I open-minded?
As a Christian living in a Muslim country I kind of have to be open-minded. I like to believe I am open-minded about everything, but I have very strong opinions.
19. Have I seen enough of the world?
Never!
20. Do I judge others?
I hate being judged, so I try to not judge others.
21. Do I take risks?
Yes, some of my best experiences and things have come from them.
22. What is my purpose?
I wish this question was more specific. I could write a whole book speculating about this, but in the end how will I know for sure. Only one being knows and He has yet to fully disclose this information to me. I will let you all know when He does 
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23. What is my biggest fear?
Fear of the unknown is my biggest fear (followed by clowns and spiders).
24. How can I conquer that fear?
I conquer that fear a little everyday I get up and go outside. I try to be nice to the clowns at my student’s birthday parties. I let the lone daddy-long-legs live peacefully behind my bathroom sink.
25. Do I thank people enough?
I try to thank everyone. I have so much to be thankful for! If I have ever forgotten, please let me thank you now because even if I did not say it at the time I always appreciate the things people do for me.
26. Am I successful?
I am on my way. I have a faith that grows stronger everyday, a wonderful family, good friends (make that great), an amazing boyfriend, nice apartment, and a job (just not the job I want to do forever).
27. What am I ashamed of?
I often spend money on things I do not need and then feel strapped right before I get paid again. If I could just say no to things more often I would be much happier and less stressed. I have gotten better but still have a long way to go.
28. Do I annoy others?
I am sure there are those out there who are annoyed by me. All I can say is…oh well. I never force people to be around me.
29. What are my dreams?
My dreams are to make enough money to live with out worrying about it all the time, to travel the world, and to live happily, loyally, faithfully, and peacefully.
30. Am I positive?
I am a positive person if that’s what this question means. My glass is half full and often runs over the top.
31. Am I negative?
Only about the company I work for. There is really not much to feel positive about where they are concerned.
32. Is there an afterlife?
Absolutely.
33. Does everything happen for a reason?
I am not sure, but I believe that if certain things in my life had not happened I would never be where I am today or who I am today.
34. What can I do to change the world?
I am not sure, but to start I should get it out of my head that I am only one small person and can not do big things. Many of the biggest voices of change belonged to only one person.
35. What is the most foolish thing I’ve ever done?
Smoked for a decade on and off. How much more foolish a thing can you think of???
36. Am I cheap?
No. I have been told I have expensive taste, but I just say I like to buy quality
37. Am I greedy?
Only when it comes to books and my sleeping time!!!
38. Who do I love?
I love everyone I know to varying degrees. It may sound unbelievable, but it is so true.
39. Who do I want to meet?
Interesting people.
40. Where do I want to go?
Everywhere! I am totally serious.
41. What am I most proud of?
My family, boyfriend, and friends make me so proud. They are all amazing people who I believe can achieve whatever they set their hearts on (I have seen it over and over again).
42. Do I care what others think about me?
I guess so. I would like to say I do not, but I have to be honest. I do not stress about it though.
43. What are my talents?
My mom would say singing and writing. Kezban says I am artistic (at least more than she is . I like to think I have talent in aromatherapy and photography. I am not sure what others say I am talented doing.
44. Do I utilize those talents?
Singing-no, writing- just my blog these days, art- with my kids and decorations, aromatherapy- yes, and photography- needs work.
45. What makes me happy?
Knowledge, truth, and the people I love.
46. What makes me sad?
Ignorance, lies, and death.
47. What makes me angry?
Ignorance, lies, and traffic.
48. Am I satisfied with my appearance?
Yes.
49. Am I healthy?
I could eat much healthier, but I am far better here than in the US.
50. What was the toughest time in my life?
My first year of college.
51. What was the easiest time in my life?
Everything before that.
52. Am I selfish?
With my time.
53. What was the craziest thing I did?
Pierce my tongue and smoke cigarettes on and off for years. I no longer have/do either.
54. What is the craziest thing I want to do?
Travel the world!
55. Do I procrastinate?
Yes (commented on it earlier).
56. What is my greatest regret?
I have done many things I am not proud of, but when I think regret, I think of something I wish I had never done. Even taking back on of those events would change the person I am today, and I would never want that. I have no regrets.
57. What has had the greatest impact on my life?
Becoming a true Christian.
58. Who has had the greatest impact on my life?
The Lord.
59. Do I stand up for myself?
Yes.
60. Have I settled for mediocrity?
Sometimes, but not often.
61. Do I hold grudges?
No. I forgive people way before I usually let them know they have been forgiven.
62. Do I read enough?
Some say I read to much, but I do not think it is possible to read too much.
63. Do I listen to my heart?
Yes.
64. Do I donate enough to the less fortunate?
Not at all.
65. Do I pray only when I want something?
No. I pray more about what I am thankful for these days.
66. Do I constantly dwell on the past?
Nope, but it comes up sometimes.
67. Do I let other people’s negativity affect me?
I try not to, but with some people it is hard to ignore.
68. Do I forgive myself?
For almost everything…
69. When I help someone do I think “What’s in it for me”?
No.
70. Am I aware that someone always has it worse than me?
Without a doubt.
71. Do I smile more than I frown?
Way more!
72. Do I surround myself with good people?
The best.
73. Do I take time out for myself?
Whenever I can.
74. Do I ask enough questions?
I thought so, but after all of these I guess I missed a few .
75. What other questions do I have?
Can I have more time to think about this one?
Have a very Happy New Year! May you all be blessed with peace, love, joy, money, and understanding in 2009. Thank you all for taking part in my life.
